Self Improvement

Hello Readers,
If you've been keeping up with my last few posts you know that I am on a mission to find a meaningful relationship.  The last couple steps I've taken have involved me taking a good hard look at myself and figuring out what I bring to the table.  This next step is also an introspective one:
Step 3: Self-Improvement
Now unless you are Jesus himself, there is room for improvement. This step is not meant for you to be harsh on yourself and make you dwell on your imperfections, but it is important that you are real with yourself.  Just like I had you write down all of your strengths, I want you to write down your weaknesses.  The goal of this step is to take initiative in making yourself a better half.  For example, let's say you have bad credit, your not in healthy physical condition, or you aren't very social, these are all issues that can be fixed with some time and effort.  There is never a obstacle so great that it cannot be overcome.  It helps if you at least recognize it is a problem, from there you can find ways to improve it. It's important to remember that not everything can be solved in a day, some things may take months or even years to fix, but once they are you will feel such a great sense of relief knowing that you overcame a great hurdle.

Ex.  Large amount of debt/Bad Credit:  get in contact with the bank or creditor and come up with a solution to minimize or eliminate your debt.  In this economy many people are having trouble and most companies are willing to work with you.  Make sure to have a reliable source of income and most importantly make a budget for yourself and STICK TO IT!!! You also want to pay yourself first by putting at least 10% in a savings account that can be used for emergencies.

It's vital that you remember that no matter how bad your situation may seem it can be fixed.

Lost Soul

Hallelujah!!! Oh thank you SWEET BABY JESUS!!!!
It's been a while since I've felt like what I was doing with my life was what I had been called to this world to do. Those who know me know that I'm an all around hustler. I do what ever it takes to make the money... (please don't take that in a negative light). I am a firm believer in never going backwards in lifestyle and at this point I am a full-time college student with my own apartment pay my own bills just all around independent woman. The things I do in order to maintain this lifestyle are as follows: cashier, parking cashier, senior independent beauty consultant with Mary Kay, Actress, Singer, promoter... pretty much whatever it takes to make it. Yet, even with all of these extra-curricular activities I was not feeling fulfilled. It's been brought to my attention that I take on so many things because I have a fear of being alone, I had to think about that... A LOT! I fear solitude. Why is this? We I'm not sure exactly, but I do know that I shouldn't fear loneliness. My only way of finding this answer would be to call on my Lord to see me through. In these past weeks, possibly months, that I've felt a sense of emptiness I had been lacking in my personal relationship with God. I've been saying to myself that I don't need to go to church in order to have a strong relationship with Him, but in order for that to work you have to make a persistent effort to make that connection with Him. I mean, I couldn't even give you a full gospel song in it's entirety. Im not saying that religion is all about the music, but I'm just saying. From this moment on I need to focus more on my Lord. I figure that once I get that part right then everything else will fall in place. Instead of praying for easy fixes to all of my mediocre dilemmas I should try something different... Possibly...

Lord,
I know that I haven't been the most obedient and humble sheep in your heard, but I come to you now to seek your guidence. My life has been all out of order and the way that I've been living and acting has not been working out for me. People are pulling away from me, those who say that they respect me go behind my back. People have such great expectations of me and I'm afraid that I'm letting them down. Please give me the strength to keep pushing towards success. Please help me follow in your footsteps and gain compassion towards others. Help me gain humility because I know that everything that I do isn't great let alone right. I am only human and no matter how much I'd like to be divine the closest thing that I can get to divinity would be through our fellowship. Please stay close to me lord, keep me in your heart and I shall keep you in mine.
Amen

Here's to hoping... or should I say praying?